Left unsaid.

Sometimes a lil things are better left unsaid. Doesn't matter where it started, but it does matter how does it feel.
A word, An action can cause huge mistake. There's no Ctrl+z button in our life. There's no undo button. There's no delete button and so does format.
But why we keep on doing the same mistake all over again?

Sometimes i'd been wondering is this the real life that we have to go through? or maybe the second life that is life after death is real.

No one knows. No one can answer it. But im putting my faith with my god up there.
Praying everyday, be sincere to everyone every second definitely a choice to do for me myself to feel comfort.

Today's a gloomy day. No words can describe how down was I, how lonely was I the whole day.
Better off alone.

Dear blog,

Its's been a month. And I got alot things to update.
And i will update my blog soooooooooooooon.
Getting my ass to bed now its already 4.52 am.

p/s : im getting healthier and healthier. :)

Happy Father's Day

Not too late to wish to all Dads in the world. Happy Father's Day.


No matter what he did, there will always a way for me to forgive him because my body runs his blood.
I'm his half and he's fully mine.
Live healthily please.

Someday i will find my prince but my dad will always be my KING.

And yes, family they are the one who will never gone in my heart.

Still loving you dad no matter what..

love,
julie

walking away

Will you still love me if i'm fat?
Will you still love me if i'm ugly?

I've experienced before the beautiful world of being in love.
& I've experienced before the betrayal and unfaithful world of being in love.
So whats the bright side of in love or whats the dark side being in love?
No judgement to be made for it because its all depends on ourselves.
If you think you are good in love, why don't you ask your partner that is she/he hurt before by you?

Time will tell.



The faces after the tears running through my cheeks.
& i realize the tears was not happiness tears.
It means something else.

Some how i notice certain things are better left unsaid. - too coward to confront.

Do you remember the times where the world is only me and you?
Thats the time i wanted i needed the most now.
Can i trade anything in this world so that i can get it back?

Fake smile i do everyday. Sorry to say I still love you. I realize it till it hurts me every single freaking day.

2 more days to go.

Last two weeks, I went to UMSC ( University Malaya Specialist Centre ) as all the doctors in Ipoh giving up on me. This is the 7th doctors I met including this.

Met with the best lung specialist in Malaysia, Prof Liam in UMSC.

After he went through all the reports he felt weird with all the tests i took in Ipoh. It was all negative including H1N1 or HIV aids or Cancer or any other diseases.

Thank god I didn't get any of the deadly disease. There are no bacterias or viruses attacking my lungs. Lucky me. That's what Prof Liam said.

He gave me 2 types of antibiotic which is I have to eat every 8 hours which is at 10.30pm 6.30am and 2.30pm. That doesnt count my other suplementary medicine which I have more than 5 types. That means I have to take every 2 to 3 hourly everyday.

When I was in high school, I admit I don't like to take any capsul medicine coz I don't even know how to swallow it. Everytime I fall sick, there's the time I sneakly threw my medicine away or I didn't wanna finish them.

That was last time. But now, I eat medicine is like I eat rice. Countless capsuls everyday.

I can just swallow it with both eyes close with a lil amount of water. *applause* TQ.

Back to the topic, 2 more days to go for my another check up. Xray CTScan and blood test will be taken on this Tuesday at UMSC. Hopefully i will get the better result than before if not I have to go through another operation and injections like last time. Nightmare in hospital for 10 days. urghh

With the supports I get from all my beloved friends and lovers, I get stronger each day. Thankyoos ♥

Keep me in your prayers as I keeping yours in mine.

xx

Hennesy Artistry @ The Opera

Few months back I got VIP invites from Helen for bloggers who advertise the Hennesy Artistry event. Decided to support Helen so i advertised & i got few invites.

We were abit late as me and Shanti were dilly dally at home make up-ing. End up, the place was packed and all tables were taken. Luckily, we hopped from one table to another table as friends of friends are all over. End up, we got our very own table. Fuhhhh what a relief. All of us are in a big group that made our crowd more happening.

Dance all night long. Sober night as usual. Everyone look good that night.

My very own Girlfriends.

Too packed !

with Steph babe.

Put&Faruq = lovebirds

Helen <3

xx

Biggy day at 7.30 am

Hello operation theater.
Hope everything goes well.
Thanks for wishes and prayers lovers.
Only god can repay you guys that.
xoxo